Let God.

Encouraged by Kristine’s Blog Entry, I’d like to give my thoughts out there.

There’s always going to be a time where you’re impatient. You’re going to be annoyed by someone, but that doesn’t mean you should plot evil in your head. That doesn’t mean you should vent the bad things the person does, because that makes you a bad person too. If someone gossips about you, and you vent to someone how rude they are, I would say you’re gossiping too. So now what, I’ve bet we’ve all been in a situation like this, where you become a hypocrite. We are all hypocrites. But that shouldn’t stop anyone from confronting someone and rebuking them because we all are not perfect. God is perfect. We strive through life trying to become like him; in this world, it is hard and it’s going to get harder.

Now, something that’s been bothering me. I just can’t help be jealous. I am so jealous about almost everything. But right now, it’s JKMK. I liked where we were, before I left for the Philippines, talking every night, spiritually and reading the bible. When I came back, I couldn’t help but see that Kristine and Melissa have come so close to each other. I mean, that’s good for you, but im just jealous. Jealous that you guys are close, both Christian, and maybe even stronger in faith than me. There’s nothing I can do about this. I hope this doesn’t change anything between you guys. I wanted to let this out, and maybe ill feel better and lose this feeling. “A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones” (Proverbs 14:30)

Boys! Before, I would be saddened to not have an experience of having a boyfriend, or even been in a thing. I feel lonely and awkward always feeling 5^th wheel or the odd one in a room. “And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 4:19) I’ve come to realize that this is not a need, it is a want. I don’t need boys in my life right now; they are just going to interfere with my spiritual life. I’m going to let go and let God. He has a plan for me! For everyone.