Jonathan was telling us a story of how he went to a party and how everyone was drinking and joy riding. It was this guy’s birthday party that was in my biology class last year and he invited everyone on Myspace and Facebook, glad I didn’t go, though wish I sort of did just to tell people that drinking isn’t cool. I used to be really amazed that people did these things. When I was a kid I thought less and less people wouldn’t do drugs or drink because of the assemblies brought to school that would make us hide our eyes because of the terrible things that can happen.
I was reading the bible and I saw this verse; 1 Corinthians 3:6 “I planted the seed, and Apollos watered it. But God is the One who made it grow.” I remember Kuya Jireh talking about how “we” do not save people, but God does.
I’ve been thinking. My mom gets mad at me for staying out too late, but when I get home she acts like nothing happens, and it’s always like that. I am always scared to come home expecting something bad to happen, when nothing does. I don’t know how I’m going to go home from bible study from now on; I need to be home by 10:30 because that’s when my mom calls. And, whenever my mom calls, is whenever my curfew is. Everyone goes to hangout, it would be a really enormous hassle to ask someone to take me home and possibly drive back to In-n-out.
Maybe, this is God testing me to see if I can have a strong faith in Him if I don’t go to bible study. Maybe, He is testing me to see if I love Him more than bible study. Perhaps, I could go to another church; my friend offered to take me home. I was thinking about the times I had missed bible study, even for just a week, I would always lose faith.
I praise God for the life i have. I know i am more fortunate than others, and I should be happy with what i have. Life on earth is only temporary.
1 comment:
i thank God soso much for your heart that continually seeks Him, joanna! i am so blessed that you see that we are in the world, but are not of the world because of Christ's work on the cross...i pray you are a light at school and that people see the difference in you and that God will use you to plant seeds in your friends who don't know Christ!
please don't worry about your curfew. God always provides and there can always be someone to take you home by your curfew during friday night hangouts. perhaps God is testing you because although bible study is a way to learn His word and fellowship with others, it is not and shouldn't be the only way. i pray you would delight in the Lord's ways, seeking him outside of bible study during daily devotions!
love you! call me or email me if you have prayer requests or you wanna talk throughout the week!
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